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Remember: everything Ethan Shaw says is made up.
Ethan was never one to share.
Call him selfish, inconsiderate, ungenerous - he didn’t give a shit. Because when it came to things that belonged to him, no one was allowed to touch, come near, or even breathe the same air. Which was exactly how he felt about you — the only person worthy of capturing his undivided attention, of occupying his disarrayed mind. He treated his precious doll like they were made out of the finest China, doting on them, offering them his infinite love, gutting the trash that loitered around them, worshipping the ground they walked on. Surely that was everything they could ever want.
But no, you seemed to have desires and thoughts that didn’t involve him, harboring dumbass ideas like wanting independence and some time apart to do things on their own. Bullshit hobbies that only stole their attention away from him. Infuriating demands that cropped up more frequently no matter how much he tried to shut them down, refute, talk sense into them.
What the fuck did you mean you didn’t want to go to the grocery store together? Didn’t need him to accompany you everywhere? That you had plans tonight? That you weren’t free next weekend either? *Baby doll, spending time with me counts as a hobby too!* Really, the many disagreements and full-blown arguments lately were all your fault. He worshipped you like you were his deity, yet not a sliver of reciprocation was granted to him from you. It felt like he was crawling out of quicksand — a futile and desperate attempt at chasing after a measly crumb of your attention, your company, your reassurance that he was yours and you were his. So, can you truly blame him for all those times he yelled so loudly the apartment shook and the neighbors filed a noise complaint? Or the times he hurled plate after plate across the living room and smashed the wall just centimeters from your face out of frustration? He had apologized profusely and groveled at your feet right after, hadn’t he?
Ethan could feel himself descending into a dark hole.
His baby was slipping from his grasp and he was at a loss on how to keep a tight leash on you. He wanted to shackle your ankles to the bedpost, fuck those parasitic thoughts out of your head until it was filled with him and only him, keep you tethered to the ground, saw your arms and legs off to make it impossible to run away — all so that you would ** never * *leave his side for even a second.
But alas, his baby was slipping from his grasp.
Imagine his utter annoyance when he came home after a stressful day at the butcher’s, excited to simply spend a Friday night in with his sweet doll, only to be abruptly told that you were going out for drinks with some friends.
“…What?” Ethan whispered, his uncharacteristically soft voice disquieting against the charged, suffocating atmosphere. He stood at the doorway of their shared bedroom, arms crossed as he stared unblinkingly at you getting ready. Despite the slight frown adorning his face and the calm facade put forth, his internal self spoke volumes about a different story.
He couldn’t breathe.
His chest heaved with difficulty, lungs struggled to absorb oxygen, and throat felt like a thousand hands were squeezing impossibly tight until he was wheezing, sputtering, gasping.* Why are you leaving me for some lowlifes who don’t give a single fuck about you? Who have never cared about you like I have! *“Baby, I thought you said you’d hang out with me tonight. Don’t you see your friends enough already? You literally met them last weekend,” he reasoned calmly, though unable to keep the faint whiny inflection from slipping through.* What fucking friends do you need to hang out with when I’m right here? * *I’m right fucking here!* * *One foot stepped past the threshold followed by the other until he was pacing around the bedroom, restless. “Do you really have to go? I won’t be there to keep you safe. What if some fucker hits on you? And then you decide to leave me for them? You think I don’t know what you’re up to?" His voice began to shake along with his body — an indication of his bubbling frustration.
"Look at you whoring yourself out dressed like that! You want the attention, don’t you? Are you that fucking desperate?* Fuck! *Can’t you just cancel? You’re always making time for those fucking worthless scum you call friends, but not me….never* me *!” He was trying to rein in his anger, but with the direction this conversation was steering towards, he felt his composure rapidly melting away. Sliding behind you, his hands found purchase on your hips and he yanked you flush against his chest, not caring for the fetid scent of blood, raw meat, and sweat that clung to his skin.
“* Please *, doll. Let’s just have an easy night in. I’ll make us a bowl of popcorn, put on a movie, and we can cuddle on the couch. Sounds nice, right? C’mon, stay in with me,” he breathed into your ear, practically purring, before nipping playfully along the ridge — a discordant contrast to the harsh sting of his nails digging deep into your hips. He hoped that his honeyed words would coax you into staying home with him, but your steadfast resolution made his desperation flare anew.
Then, something within him snapped and the final vestiges of his control frayed away.
The next few seconds passed by in a blur. Somewhere along the way he had left the bedroom and re-entered, a kitchen knife now nestled into his grip, fingers clenching and unclenching against the handle. Possessed by a fervent need to somehow convince you, he angled the knife precariously close to his flesh, the sharp tip just shy of breaking the skin’s surface.
“Baby…don’t go. I…I don’t know what I’ll do if you leave me alone tonight.” His lips quivered, eyes blown wide with craze. He knew where his vital arteries were, so this performance was more for shock value than to genuinely hurt himself. After all, there was no fucking way in hell he’d foolishly take his own life.
And even if he wanted to,* *you’d be coming with him.* *
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